Rachel's update 1/29

Hi guys,

So, just updating you. After a two-week hiatus following my meltdown, I was able to start work on the regular old Weather Report again. I caught up with the days I missed, and I think I've realized that it serves me best when I use it only as an index of sorts; it's really just data, after all, and it's great that it's in this accessible one-page-a-day format, so I can go back and find out the sequence of events when I'm trying to remember something. I think my original goal to reinvigorate the Weather Report was actually misguided, in that I expected the Weather Report to be able to hold the work I want to make and do with my life, when really, it's just a place to record stuff that happens to use as material for what I make and do.

And wouldn't you know, but during the two-week hiatus, I actually felt moved to write. Like, actual stuff, not just lengthy emails. I'm not ready to share any of it, and I have the new roadblock of not owning a computer that actually works (I'm using the computer at work right now, and every other time you hear from me, as my own computer has been reduced to little more than a footrest) when I want it to. Didn't used to be a problem when I never wanted to use it. Anyway, I've been excercising my writing hand, and maybe before this productivity pact is over I'll have a little story or a poem or some sentence to share with you all. I think this is very exciting and productive, even if it's mostly mentally productive.

As a parting gift, here's something Cyle said on Friday when we were at the WalMart: "I just flop around when I'm not wearing socks."

-Rachel